The Real Score Please

You don't have to check his Facebook page, he no longer represents you so whatever he does it's on him and you're not accountable to anything he becomes after he left you. Don't text him, you really don't have to. It is pointless to talk about life with him since you guys should be dealing with life separately now. Don't update him about what is happening about you; the main reason he ended you're 3 years relationship should be because he no longer wants to have anything linked to you + he (should) no longer care. 

Stop finding magical reasons why he's suddenly interested to hangout, why he is suddenly affected that there are others who are interested about you, why he holds your hand and kissed you and hugged you tight, why he goes out with you and why he seem to be overly kind and caring once again, do not assume, do not think he wants to get back with you UNLESS he says so, unless he wants to commit again. There may be plenty of reasons but sometimes Love can be faked and you shouldn't entrust your happiness to him again. Remember he's the reason why you want to reinvent yourself. He broke you dear self. Remember that.

I know it feels so damn good that whenever you are together (alone, no audience ) he acts as if nothing has changed, but do not be fooled change is everywhere and if there is one thing that badly needs some progress; it is your journey towards loving yourself and letting him go. I am aware that you still haven't stop holding on to the idea of having him again, but it was long gone. The gods are working on a different stories for each of you now and I know you are not stupid to not spot on the fact that he still flirts around and that there is a 95 to 0% that he will be faithful again- so stop now dear self, let go of the knife that is  continuously stabbing your chance to life away. I know you will not listen. 

You are a stubborn bitch and you just won't listen, I know that dear self but try hard  and touch base with reality.  The sooner you accept it the lesser you get burned, you already have bruises and those are slowly healing, so stop and do not add some more tragedy to your no happy ending story. Stop resuscitating the drowned. I know you will not listen, you don't have to-at least not right away. You can never be on a dream for too long without realizing it's a nightmare.